Recently I've been thinking again about moving, possibly next year, to a rental, already got my choices in mind. I'd been thinking that one of the best things about this neighborhood is the free friendships, people chatting, helping etc.
Since covid it's changed. People still friendly, but all in their bubbles. I go days without even seeing anyone. Can't be helped. But if I move, I won't be any more alone than I am now at this rate.
And a perfect unit for me came available this week. All kinds of advantages. Ground floor, nearer Handsome Son but not in his face, friends used to own it, another friend lives right there.
But this is not a time to put the house on the market. Next spring maybe. The idea being to move, then list the house. This rental was available less than a year ago. Job losses have sadly affected renters. Sooooo, son more or less on board. Next time this unit is up, or a similar one in that development, I'll go for it. I suspect this rental will be available again. The reason for a rental is that I don't want to leave Handsome Son stuck alone having to sell a house. Just emptying a small rental is much more within reason.
Then, amidst all this musing, friend one stopped by, said just a chat, hadn't seen me (he lives nextdoor), very nice. Wondering if old times might return. Read on.
Couple of hours later, text from mutual friend two, saying they're planning a little party for friend three. On my patio next weekend. Probably five people. On my 8x10 deck. Which accommodates two safely. Chinese food, which I don't do, guest of honor an acquaintance likewise, all arranged before mentioning it! I think they got a bit carried away.
Sooo this may explain the little visit ahead of time. Advance diplomacy. Anyway I restrained my initial amazement and just texted that it will be a long while before I'm comfortable in groups.
Then sat quietly reading through the subsequent litany of texted reasons why it would be FINE, and four people (where'd the guest of honor go, not in the list) isn't really a GROUP, and well if I'm really not comfortable OUTSIDE with FOUR CAREFUL PEOPLE she understood. No thought that maybe I had other plans. Or that it's too hot for me outside.
I put into practice something I often forget: don't debate. Don't give multiple reasons as I did above, because they'll be batted away one by one. Just stick with polite no.
Anyway at the end of all this I thanked her for understanding (!), said that was kind. And let her have the last word: they'll wait till I'm comfortable! Might be a long wait.
So today a restorative trip to the farm happened.
Lovely canteloupe, six desserts there, new supply of tomatoes, may freeze some for later sauce, first peaches.
All taking a cool bath, not so much because of handling, probably three people at most, but to wash off mud and wildlife.
And today's lunch salad, still with the chicken farmer pie for main, is dandelion greens, chives and sliced tomatoes.
I made a new dressing: olive oil, white vinegar, Dijon mustard, minced garlic, grated lemon zest, hot pepper seeds. Very good. Now that the dandelion is getting bitter, needs some opposition. I just made this little quantity for now.
After this really good lunch, with a peach in prospect, the saga of the patio party is starting to look funny.